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Saying Goodbye to Dad – Blog #27
I always knew the day would come when I would have to say goodbye to my dad. No matter how much I tried to prepare for this loss, it still hurts so bad. He was my daddy and I love him so very much. I always have. The last 10 years of his life he…
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Good Enough – Blog #26
“The most important day is the day you decide you’re good enough for you. It’s the day you set yourself free.” – Brittany Josephina How does it feel to believe you’re good enough? I struggle believing that I am not good enough. My insecurities aren’t about whether I am liked or not, it is about…
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Reprocessing Trauma – Blog #25
“Nobody will protect you from your suffering. You can’t cry it away or eat it away or starve it away or walk it away or punch it away or even therapy it away. It’s just there, and you have to survive it. You have to endure it. You have to live through it and love…
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A New Normal – Blog #24
“Survival mode is our new normal.” – Emily Graham, a bereaved parent. Living with the loss of my son has been a rollercoaster of lessons. The only defining truth that won’t ever change is that I will always be a grieving mother. After losing Ryan, I was told I would have to find my new…
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Finding My Sunshine – Blog #23
“Our greatest battles are that with our own minds.” – Jameson Fran The first time I really consciously thought about trying to change my mindset was when I decided to have my foot surgeries. Instead of focusing on the pain, I changed my words and thoughts to “this is what it feels like to heal.”…
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Unbreakable Bonds – Blog #22
I am always fascinated at the timeless bond that is made in the four short years of high school. Four years is such a short amount of time when you look at a lifetime. Even though we only see eachother every once in a blue moon, and talk or message each other a couple times…
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Improving Quality of Life – Blog #21
“A range of studies reveal the powerful effects grief can have on the body. Grief increases inflammation, which can worsen health problems you already have and cause new ones. It batters the immune system, leaving you depleted and vulnerable to infection. The heartbreak of grief can increase blood pressure and the risk of blood clots.…
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Best Days of My Life – Blog #18
Whenever I hear the song: “Best Day of My Life,” by American Authors… I think of Ryan. Mostly because of the day he called me upset that he had a tick infestation and he said “Well this is probably the worst day of my life!” I remember thinking for a split second that I was…
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The Adventures of Hammer (Ryan’s Dog) – Blog #17
“Dogs come into our lives to teach us about love, they depart from our lives to teach us about loss. A new dog never replaces an old dog, it merely expands the heart.” – Liam J. Barnes Ryan loved dogs and had a special bond with our family pets growing up. When he was 4,…
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My heart hurts! – Blog #15
It feels like an apocalypse is coming sometimes. I spend so much of my life waiting for worst case scenarios. I learned a long time ago to never think that things can’t get worse… life can always get worse! I’ve been feeling pretty good. Writing my blogs has helped a ton. I talked to my…
Opening Up After Life's Traumatic Experiences
Life after childhood cancer, abuse, family addictions, death of my son, suicide of my husband, and more.