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Can You Relate?- Blog #31
Some days I get asked if I’m having a bad day. For some reason that question will trigger the worst of days. My initial thought is “Do I look like I’m having a bad day?” Then my thoughts will turn to “Do you really think any day could be considered a ‘good’ day?” And then…
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Planning for Happiness-Blog #30
What is my purpose in this world? Could everyone have a specific purpose? Walking in public, I look around at people, it’s tough to believe that every single person on this earth is here for a reason. But I suppose… each person has their lineage, their devotion to what is important to them, and with…
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Remember Ryan – Blog #29
This month is the toughest month! I hate that it brings another year to my grief, never giving respite to my relentless pain. The monster called grief that I somehow have tamed to just show itself when I choose, comes out of hiding as we enter July. This monster doesn’t just hide here or there,…
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12 Months – Blog #28
My grief for Ryan is felt with every experience, good and bad. Last week I gained a new granddaughter, and I am so overcome with the abundance of love I have for her. I can’t stop wondering how I can feel so much love with such a broken heart. As I ponder the last 12…
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Saying Goodbye to Dad – Blog #27
I always knew the day would come when I would have to say goodbye to my dad. No matter how much I tried to prepare for this loss, it still hurts so bad. He was my daddy and I love him so very much. I always have. The last 10 years of his life he…
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Good Enough – Blog #26
“The most important day is the day you decide you’re good enough for you. It’s the day you set yourself free.” – Brittany Josephina How does it feel to believe you’re good enough? I struggle believing that I am not good enough. My insecurities aren’t about whether I am liked or not, it is about…
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Reprocessing Trauma – Blog #25
“Nobody will protect you from your suffering. You can’t cry it away or eat it away or starve it away or walk it away or punch it away or even therapy it away. It’s just there, and you have to survive it. You have to endure it. You have to live through it and love…
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A New Normal – Blog #24
“Survival mode is our new normal.” – Emily Graham, a bereaved parent. Living with the loss of my son has been a rollercoaster of lessons. The only defining truth that won’t ever change is that I will always be a grieving mother. After losing Ryan, I was told I would have to find my new…
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Finding My Sunshine – Blog #23
“Our greatest battles are that with our own minds.” – Jameson Fran The first time I really consciously thought about trying to change my mindset was when I decided to have my foot surgeries. Instead of focusing on the pain, I changed my words and thoughts to “this is what it feels like to heal.”…
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Unbreakable Bonds – Blog #22
I am always fascinated at the timeless bond that is made in the four short years of high school. Four years is such a short amount of time when you look at a lifetime. Even though we only see eachother every once in a blue moon, and talk or message each other a couple times…
Opening Up After Life's Traumatic Experiences
Life after childhood cancer, abuse, family addictions, death of my son, suicide of my husband, and more.